I Think It Must Be Said

Hello. It's been awhile, yes?

I've had gentle nudging from one who shall remain unnamed along with not-so gentle poking from many others regarding this blog along with my personal blog. Where ARE you?

I've also virtually walked away from my editor/writing post at Blissfully Domestic (my managing editor: "Please don't quit! Just take a break ...")

Something is happening. You know how you have things all planned out for something and then you are reminded that God is driving the train, not you? I've been eyeing this time - all my boys in school all day - for years. Especially having a special needs child who took up every bit of my time and energy during the day. This was to be my time to finally write full time - or something close to that. I am a stay-at-home mom with a degree in journalism that's been collecting dust for 10 years since I left my career.

But I've come to believe I'm being reminded that I'm not driving the train. Because the thing is - and here it is - I can't write. There. For the first time in my life that I can remember, I'm drawing a monumental blank. A big, frightening, elephant-sized blank. I have tons to write about; I have the time and opportunity to write; but my mojo is gone, so to speak. When I look at myself in the mirror, I want to throw rotten fruit at it and yell, "Boooooooo!"

How was it, again, that Stella get her groove back?

God is taking me on a journey that I'm not particularly appreciating. Now that it's been months, I've come to realize that I'd better listen up. And I guess that's where I am now. I am deaf in one ear, so I'm used to not being able to decipher a lot of what's going on around me, but come on! I have no idea what He's trying to say by seemingly taking away the one thing I do well, but okay.

So I'm just keeping the three people that read this blog informed of the state of affairs. Perhaps one of you has heard what God's trying to say to me? Maybe?

Comments

[Jen]

Whatever you do, don't do what Stella did to get her groove back. lol. An affair in Jamaica is NOT what God is calling you to do;)

[Holly Anderson]

AHAHAHAHA! Noted.